Moments of Impact
We all have these moments of impact in our lives. Moments that define who we are. Moments when we need to step up and face the fears in our lives that try to hold us back.
One of the very first moments of impact in my life was when I was about 15 or 16 years old. I had this silly habit where I loved to put clean clothes in the dryer for about 10 minutes before putting them on. I loved the feeling of warm, freshly tumbled clothes. Well, my Dad did not like this idea.
I sadly grew up watching my Dad physically and emotionally abuse my Mom. Now, my mom was not perfect, but being a little girl I typically only paid attention to what was happening to my mom. I never had the courage to stick up for her because I was scared and never knew what to say in her defense. I listened to the arguments, I listened to the fights from my closet. He was a strong man and his anger scared me to no end.
As I got older I knew I needed to become more confident and courageous. I wanted to step up and not just allow the abuse to happen while I sat by and watched. I knew I couldn’t save their marriage and I couldn’t stop them from arguing but I could stick up for what I believed wasn’t right.
My moment of impact with my Father was one particular day with the dryer. He came in hot and heavy and didn’t like the fact that I “was running up the bill” with clean clothes in the dryer already dried. Now, I don’t know what was on my fathers heart that day to make him explode about the dryer, but I do know that day was one of the first times my dad laid hands on me and I actually stuck up for myself. I do not know what came over me but I wasn’t going to tolerate it anymore. He let go of my shirt.
We may never full understand why we have to go through these moments of impact. God’s plan is not for us to be hurt but for us to become strong warriors, more than conquerors. We want to think the things we have been through are just not fair. We want to feel sorry for ourselves and just throw in the towel. Your not alone. Sometimes, yes, I have felt this way too. BUT I could feel deep, deep, deep in my heart even before I knew who God was, that I had a big life ahead of me and I wanted more. I BELIEVED there was more. More than just living in a trailer with barely any food, no heat or hot water for months. I knew I didn’t want other people to have to experience the kind of pain that I have been through.
I do not know what your moment of impact is right now, nor do I know what you have been through. Here is what I can tell you though, you don’t have to allow these moments to become painful scars in your life, instead let them be a teaching for your life. Let them be a lesson to learn from. Don’t compare your moments with someone else either. You never know how deep a root is just because you see someone smiling and happy. Your moments of impact are yours and they are going to make you stronger if you let them. Don’t let the enemy win and tell you that you are worthless and your life is unimportant.
I took my moments of impact and learned from them and now I am able to share them with you. I am thankful to say my father and I have been working on our relationship for the past few years. I have had to walk through a lot of forgiveness for both him and myself. The best thing about the whole process though is that for the first time in my life I feel free. No baggage. No bondage. No anger.
Walk through your moments with your head up. I know you are going to get through them.